16th Apr 2014
Wednesday // 3pm // 5 months ago
Why I don’t need a relationship right now to make me happy (Cause I can do it myself)
Someone asked me a random question today that had made me ponder on some things… & I’d love to share it all to you.
I don’t need a man to make me happy right now, cause I know how to make myself happy without depending it to other people. I don’t need to be in a relationship just because everyone else is, cause I myself is still in a work in progress, with so much to fix & prioritize in my life that I won’t have time dealing with petty fights & random love quarrels. I don’t have someone special not because there’s no one to entertain, nor because I haven’t gotten over my past relationship but because I devote all my love & time to the boy who means the world to me, & he doesnt deserve to share it with someone else. Just because I’m not seeing someone, or dating, doesn’t mean I feel lonely like there’s a missing piece in the puzzle of my not so exciting life. No. I have actually never enjoyed being single as much as I do now. & I genuinely mean that.
It took me quite a while to appreciate happiness without the person whom you get it from. It took me a really long time to pick up the small little pieces & learn to smile again, till I made room to love myself more. A little bit more, a lot more, & more, till I never needed to rely to anyone else for love. It then made me realize that love is not what you give to someone else, or to the people around you. It starts with what you do for yourself, it starts with how you love & appreciate you being you, without others having control over what you feel.
I guess I shall never be chasing for a wrong man to stay in my life anymore, nor be looking for love just cause I need it. Cause I have it all over me, I have found happiness in so many form, in so many people, in things you don’t always see or appreciate, in the little things we tend to take for granted, & within myself whom I forgot to love when I was too focused of my love for my significant other.
Just because we are single, doesn’t mean we’re not happy. It just simply means that we are secured with ourselves, that with or without a man, we’ll be fine. Just fine. Perfectly fine. ;)